As I mentioned in Launch Sequence Initialised, I’m back at Uni, for the third, and thankfully, the final time.
I rant and rave about Uni all the time, and how great it is. This year however, it’s going sour. It’s not the job I have on the side, it’s not the Musical Theatre Society (trust me, it’s great), it’s the course itself.
The course itself for the past two years, has been a cacophony of experimentation, challenge, good pressure, and not much spoon-fed learning. That sounds odd, but if you’re on a media course to get spoon-fed a bunch of unnecessary things, then you’re in the wrong place. I wish that was explained to people before they enrolled. Our tutors themselves have said that honestly, lectures aren’t important. You don’t get much from them. The learning, and experimenting come from your own time. That’s no good for you when you’re own time is spent debating why you even came back for this lame excuse for a third year.
I have taken more notes in my lectures this year than I have for any other. I’m not saying that because I was taking mediocre notes then and taking better notes now, but because I know how important this year is, and I’ve had jack shit from it so far. Passionate Me over the Summer was one of my favourite pieces of work so far, and as per usual, it’s not one getting marked. Not like the marks actually matter in the long run, but hey, it would be nice to see another piece of work I poured my heart and soul into get a grade that wasn’t one based on the tutor’s inept ability to actually listen to their Students and understand their damn work.
Nothing this year has challenged me so far. The ‘x60MC’ module code always held the best challenges, and always pushed me. Be it under-pressure, or giving me a brief that isn’t so- brief. Other than that, the lectures have been no use, the seminars have been re-stating the lectures, therefore, double the nothing, and unfortunately, much like one particular module last year, it seems there’s an extent of ‘it’s on Moodle, so you should know’ is popping up again. I have already complained about this instance in a recent student survey. I mean, I’m paying £9000 a year for some inept person to write really important information in light blue text on a white background.
I mean, I’m on minimum wage behind a bar, making posters for various things that people don’t realise they aren’t made by someone highly-trained and with a degree in Graphic Design, and someone getting paid god-knows-what is doing this, on what is one of the most modern courses there is!
It just makes no sense. As for my FMP, I mentioned before that I hadn’t a clue what I’m doing for it, and now we’re two months later, I’m still clueless. I really don’t know what I’m doing. I’ve done some good work in these past two years, I’m not disputing that, but none of the skills or concepts I used could transfer into something big, final, and grade-deciding. Also, it’s unnerving when your tutors all assume you’re doing film. I know it wouldn’t be the case that they don’t care if you’re not doing film, but it certainly does put it across that way when you’re sat in a lecture and whenever they mention jobs in the industry, they only mention ‘Director’, ‘Producer’, or ‘Editor’. I want to go into Radio. I love Radio. I got extremely excited when I got the chance to do a Radio module, only to find out my course-mates were bitching about those I was working with, that they were only with me because I would do everything. Fuck you. That’s all I can say. That’s the module I subtly mentioned earlier. Y’know, getting a grade depending on what the tutor thought we did, not what we actually did. Jeez, it’s not black and white. Media is as grey as it’s ever going to get. Do your research.
At the end of the day, my course right now is uninteresting, boring, not at all challenging, and doesn’t feel like the course it has been for the last two years. You may be thinking, ‘We all have to do stuff we don’t enjoy,’ and don’t worry, I know. That’s been said to me a lot. There’s been shit going down in the past two years I haven’t wanted to do. Modules have sucked absolute ass, especially last year (which I consider my favourite year), and I’m not one of those few people who really did make it known that they didn’t like the module, by either not doing it, or submitting some half-arsed work and being a colossal knob about it.
This year however, if I’m finding it difficult to find the motivation to even tick the box I need to, to pass this module, or year, and get my final degree, we have a problem.
That’s all I see this year. No challenge, no joy, no passion.